I'm...Not Really Sure

That's just it. I'm not really sure. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel right now. I'm not sure who's right or who's wrong. All I know is that I apologized profusely. I got yelled at. A lot. Maybe I deserve it. But I'm really not sure. I didn't do any yelling back. Maybe I should have. But I'm really not sure. I probably shouldn't have done what I did in the first place. But I'm really not sure. I'm in a super confused state right now and not sure what I should do or what should have been done. But... I do know one thing. I'm really sorry. I'm really hurt. I really want it to be fixed. I really hate how I feel right now. I really want things to be better. How? Well......I'm not really sure.
<3 J

Sometimes...I Just Don't Know

I'm a rather intelligent person. I scored a 30 on my ACT. I make pretty good grades. I know a lot of stuff. People compliment me on it all the time. But, a lot of times, more often than not, I find myself lost.
If someone came to you with a complaint, very simple, such as "I'm thirsty", what would you tell that person? Easy, right? "Drink something." However, what if that person were to say "I'm so thirsty right now. But, I think I'll wait til tomorrow to drink something."? It seems totally illogical, right?
This is where I am right now. I'm at a total loss for words. Why would the parched person refuse the one thing that they are in need of at the moment? It's not like they are withdrawing and need a hit of coke or something. It's water. It's nourishment. It's what everyone needs. Kinda like food. You gotta eat. But for that person to say nah I'll wait til tomorrow, just totally blows my mind.
I don't know. It's as simple as that. I don't know. And I'll probably never know. It's things like this that make me doubt my intellectual abilities altogether. I guess I'm not as smart as I thought I once was. Good thing there's Google I guess.
<3 J

Packing

I kinda hate packing. It's sorta stressful to me. I worry so much all the time, and packing makes me wory that I'm forgetting really important things. Luckily, I have a good friend that's going to make sure I have everything haha
So, why am I packing?? Because I'm going to only the best place in the world!! No, not Disney Land or anything like that....I'M GOING TO BETH'S HOUSE!!!! Beth is ONLY my BESTESTESTESTESTESTEST friend!!!! God I'm so excited. Can you tell? lol
I'll be leaving my place on Friday and flying into her place around noon friday and staying for about 8 days.
Today wasn't a bad day. I went shopping for clothes for my trip. I think I'm just about set. But I do need to find my coat. I've been informed it's rather chilly where she lives haha.
So insurance commercials are really cracking me up lately. Especially Allstate and geico commercials.. THEY'RE HILARIOUS!! Especially the new one where the guy pretends to be a psu flag on a car. HAHA!!
Alright that's enough randomness for now peeps. I'm out.
<3 J

Did YOU vote?

Today was election day. Some of my colleagues at work were talking about it basically all day. So it had been on my mind. On my way home, though, I honestly forgot all about it. Luckily the polling place nearest my house is right across the street at the fire station and i saw a bunch of cars there and it reminded me.
This was the first time ever for me. I've never voted in any election before. I hadn't registered to vote until this year. Lame, I know. But, at least I'm registered now right? haha
Work wasn't bad. We ran for a while then did some cleaning stuff. It went by pretty fast so that was good.
I'm super tired though. Maybe because I didn't sleep very well last night. Lately, my mind has been racing at night. It's like it's empty during the day, and I just go through my daily routine but when i turn the lights out at night and my head hits the pillow, it's like my mind goes into hyperdrive. I don't really like it because (1) it keeps me from sleeping and (2) it's so late that nobody is around to talk to and it's just, idk, just weird. i mean i don't expect anybody to stay up just for me, so i hope none of you get offended by this. Just sometimes it sucks. But, tis life.
On a lighter note....NOVEMBER 19th!!!! I'll be going to visit my BESTEST BESTEST BESTESTEST FRIEND Beth!!!!! I CANNOT wait!!! It's gonna be so much fun. I've never been to the north before. I've only traveled south for trips. I know it'll be cold. That part I'm not looking forward to lol but I'll endure it if it means going to visit my friend :)
Okay I'm gonna get this thing posted then chill in bed and warm up. This house is freezing!
<3 J

She's Baaaack

So after a little bit of drama (okay maybe a little more than a little bit) I have decided to reinstate myself to the world of blogging. That being said, I'm going to go in a different direction this time. Just some random stuff, tell you about my day, what's going on, you know the normal blog kinda stuff.
Sooo, here goes.
11/1/10
Today's the first of the month. I LOVE the first of the month. Why? Idk. I just do :)
I spent the weekend with some friends of mine out of town. For the most part it sucked. People are dumb and mean and I kinda hate them. But there were some fun times.
I went and saw Paranormal Activity 2 yesterday and I really liked it. I think I hyped myself up for it a little too much and expected more than what I got but it still freaked me out. Especially since I was laying on the living room floor (my bed for the weekend) and everything was all quiet and BAM! something fell out of the kitchen cabinet. I about shit a brick. It was really freaky. Thankfully, though, I fell back asleep soon.
This morning I woke up to a text from one of my sisters saying that dad was pissed at me bc I missed an appointment to get my tires rotated. HA! I already have it rescheduled so all is good. I find it kind of funny though that he got so mad over something that is so easily fixed. Oh well. I fixeded it :)
Today will mostly be a day of laundry, cleaning, and chilling. For a lot of people today is hte day of recovering. But I didn't get wasted so I'm all good lol.
I think that's enough for now. I plan on being here more often. We'll see.
<3 J

P.S. Father brought up a very good point in his homily last night that i totally forgot to share. Especially since tomorrow is election day and everyone's been hearing all the ridiculous campaign ads, here's some food for thought. Candidates always tell you whether they are pro-choice or pro-life. However, most of the time, even when they say they're pro-life, they're really not. For example, I heard an ad in class one day that was a perfect model of what I'm talking about. I couldn't tell you the guy's name or where he's from but I can tell you what he said. Basically, he said vote for him because he is pro-life and does not believe in abortion. Then some other stuff. Then said he supports the death penalty for major offenders. Okay. I know that if i were put in the position of sending someone to jail for killing a loved one or putting him to death, I would reallllllllly want to kill the son of a bitch. But. Being pro-life means acknowledging the sanctity of life from the moment of conception until NATURAL death. We can't say oh this baby deserves to live, but this murderer deserves to die. When regarding life itself, we can't classify by age or behavior or criminal activity. Life is life. We are either for it or against it. No matter if the person is 2 or 92.